"its really hurt to see you hurting. i tried to move on cause u ask me. pls dnt hate me cause dis is what u want."

i hope this phrase explain everything. dont get me wrong.

i still think you'r the best. even you're not mine.

i hope you find the perfect one.

but if not, dnt hesitate to turn on me.

cause im right here still waiting for you.

i noe dat ive hurt a lot of innocence.

you can leave me. maybe i deserve it.

dats good. cause idk who sarted it n idk how to make it end.

n apologies doesnt seems to heal.

but still, im here to say sorry and i really mean it.

it does nt supposed to be like this.

things happened out of expectation.

what im thinking right now is how to make it end?






abg! when you are coming home? i miss you so much!
i really need you right now.
how are you? i really hope you'r fine abg!
im terribly missing you n worried about you every single day of my life.
im counting. i waited for you for 40 days.
but time flies so fast. its exceed more than 40.
and still there were no sign of you.
i miss to ask you questions.
i miss you ask me questions as well.
and i miss all the jokes. laughter.
i smile when i remember yours.
i cried when i knew your we'rent there.
where are you right now? have you eaten?
i wanna share with you alot of stories.
i guess i just have to say here.
abg tgh buwat aper?
adeq nak bilang sumtink.
abg, adeq dpt masok poly. =)
abg, adeq ader kawan baru.
abg, tadi adek nmpk org nie kelakar sgt.
abg ketawe k. adeq nk dgr suare abg.
abg, ader satu kakak nie lawar tao. adeq dah chop kan untok abg.
adeq cume tgh tunggu abg datang jek k.


i dont care if we cannnot meet any more.
but let me hear your voice atleast once.
abg, my tears wouldnt stop.
how to make it stop?
i still crying when i get to see you.
tell me how abg?
abaaaaang! call me.
adeq tunggu k.
abg, im sure u miss my laughter.
so let me laugh here and pretending you are beside me. =D
hehe.











puuuuuuuf ! blow all the dust again.

WOW!
okey, its time for me to clean up. whan was the last time i post? february 5?
and now? april 6. aint dat awesome. hah! 2 months away.
so basically i had a very wonderful life. Alhamdulillah. tanx to Allah.
after ive been tru the thickness of my life. chey.

ive started working on 7 january untill 9 april. soon.
it was a great expirience and im too glad to meet them.
we're like a family now. all those makchics are like my mother.
soon we have to be parted and im going to seperate ways.
this is hurting as a child have to leave their mother.
and further they're not my real mother. so i guess we dnt have enough time to spend.
its my turn to learn the new world out there. u guys have tot me alot.
thank you very much. i love you all.
especially my mummy normah, cik shida, cik chu, cik ani, kak yati, cik linda n cik ema.
its was FUN to be pempered by all the makchics.
when im hungry during work time, they feed me wif everything they had.
FOOD n ofcoz LOVE.the food was so nice! chocolate everyday for me. =D
sometimes i dnt have to do alot of work.just distubing to make the situation go hyper.
they love it though. n i noe they r going to miss my crazy behaviour. cos they told me. how i wish i could stay this way forever. but i noe, life have to move on. n im gonna miss to be pempered by all my surrounding people ! oooowh.

my next mission, my new school.
hmm. wondering what would be my life there? the people? the environment? the socialize?
it scares me alot. coz i havent been to this kind of situation. the school wif the presence of ur oppisite sex. seram sejuk dgr. im nervous!
i think , im gonna be the quietest student ever. HAHA! at the moment i guess. =S


ouh great! my schedule real pack!
alaaaar. how eh ?
tomorow i got trainning.
thursday-im going out wif the makchics 3rd floor.
friday-im going out wif makchics on 4th floor.
saturday-going out wif frens. YEAH!
sunday-trainning n maybe gg out wif frens too.
monday-continue doing major shopping. HEHE
tuesday-i need to go to my new school. cheyBAAH! hahah
wednesday-is my orientation !! *gulp*
thursday-my dad's burfday.
friday-celebration of my dad's birthday.
saturday- i wanna meet my abg! PUHLEASE !
sundya- RELEX ! yeah!

ouh my god ! this is so way COOL ! !i juz found out dat i can make a fake bob wif my current long hair ! aint it awesome?! i was thinking of, since im in nursing course, i could make this hair done during my attachment or my practical with those awesomely methods. muahaha. ppl wouldnt noe dat my hair is long or short ryt. or are they ? ah watever. i dont care. the rules are, NO PONY TAILS. your hair must tie in a bun or short. so i choose short . =) so i wanted to share the video with you guys here. enjoy the awesomeness magic. *for me* haha. ouhkey. i frgt how to upload videos here. so i juz post the link aites. still u guys can enjoy it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdGtde69Lx4&feature=SeriesPlayList&p=89538B9C4F60390A


ouh btw, my mom bought for me a dragonfruit bag n a freaking cute pink pen.dat is so adorable!! and i got my PAY!! so definately, im going to do a MAJOR SHOPPING on wednesday!! okey im done for today.
ADIOS.

it was a normal day dat turn out to be a very hectic day. the victory of my life. i wasnt expect anithing at the very end of the time. i felt hopeless. so i thought i would share the happiness from them. at least i can feel it too. but unfortunately, i have mine! atlast, this is the moment for me to shine. afterall im one of those forgetable people. but starting now and onwards, i am not. id finally moved out from the dark . ive found the light. the light of everything. that leads me to the path of victory that i had always dreamt of walking on it proudly. full wif pride.this is the new beginning of my life. im ready for it. bring it on beybeh!


you noe readers, the capital letters really freaks me out dude ! its like they are screaming on my face!!! i was in the bus. it happened at 6:22 in the morning when i received this freaking scary msg. i was alone. i wanted to hug the guy beside me . haha. k kidding. SMILE ! so my days started wif a smile. :D n that very moment, how i wish my brother was there too. ouh, this result also as an advance gift for my mama's birthday present. which hers on 28 january ! n congrats to my sister as she passed her exams just now.

i am so happy dat finally i get to hear ur voice. please dont vanish in a thin air again. haha. please dont go away. please dont leave me hanging again. stop taking any redundant 'course' okey. haha.ouh yees. u owe me sumting. pretty please. i need dat. i lost mine. u knew dat. kehkeh. i need a brand new handphone. definitely it will be pink offcourse. what else? anw, drop dat subject, the important is dat, i really miss u like crazy hell lots ! ahha.

ouhh. hey, i watched toothfairy ! its a funny movie. but theres a part which is lame for me. perhaps it would be funny for kids. coz the girls infront of me was laughing so loudly. GEDIK ! aku mcm nk tendang jek kepale dorang. haha. violent! but overall, its a preety cute movie. watch it. dont missed it. good luck. heh.

next stop. im going out wif my abg REAL SOON ! catch us live on ....... haha.
and tomorrow, im going out wif my mother and sister. belated birthday celebration!!
and guess what ? try to guess. i cant tell u guys. just guess. ur not going to die if ur wrong. please guess. guess right now or else! guess guys ! dont give up. its not too late. its not the end of the world. guess quickly. time is precious!! guess what? what did u guys guessing FOR? i guess dat i have updated and im done here! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEH

a quick reminder for everyone. i lost my handphone ! but i still can get ur msg or calls from u guys. coz i just lost the phone. not the sim card. tanx. but still it was a disaster. Ya Allah! how on earth i lost it? PUKAU ! it happened today. surely i just cant get a peace night for today. sorry mama. i lost ur phone ! i didnt mean to. but it happened so fast.i just couldnt stop it. rise above it ! i am angry!!

aniwae, results have been released for chicken years yet i didnt mention abt it.
u bet for what i get? its quite disappointing. but alhamdulillaaaaaah i passed. ive been a studious girl for the past year. tanx to Amir for teaching me and kak Sarifah too.and ofcozz my teachers at fig learning centre. and lastly my parents and sisters dat have been always by my side through my ups and down ! ouh. and my fellow friends to cheer me up when im stressed ! appreciation is giving. hahaha. currently waiting for school result which have been applied through JAE. hoping wishing very hard. insyaAllah Amin !

and now im sitting on my red chair. thinking what should i do and listening 'dont forget' by demi lovato. im scared right now, coz im alone at home. and its raining heavily and the thunder make my head spin right round right round.haha. ouh mama. please come home faster.

and by the way people, are you happy now ? because i updated at last! muahaha.

aku sungguh sedih. hati ku sungguh gunda.
aku cemburu sangat bangat yg teramat.
namun apa kan daya. keadaan tidak mengizinkan. tsk tsk.
ouh tuhann. aku harus bersabar.
tabah kan laah hati ku ini.
orang kata, air pon ada pasang surutnya.
ini hanyalah dugaan semata mata.
susah susah dahulu. senang senang kemudian.
tidak mengapa. aku percaya.. kami juga boleh suatu hari nanti.
yang benar aku ingin pergi MELANCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG!
hahahah. JANGAN ketawa kan saya! saya tidak suka. paling pantang tawu.
kamu tega mengetawakan saya ?
aku sedar siapa aku. jangan jangan. henti kan semua ini .
aku BENCI BENCI BENCI SEMUA INI !


The first week was interesting merely because I have a lot of things get done. Great! Keep me busy please!! During 5 consecutive days, it turns out to be really desolated. I felt isolated. Boring dokk! I cant stand this feeling of confinement. How much longer do I have to bear with it? Tell me! Im compelled to resign and find a better one which Im familiar with. I need a company to talk with. You know. It kills boredom. I always stared at my watch and wished for the end of that day! This is harassment dude! Its killing me. Luckily I brought my PDVD everyday to kill the time. I’ve got pins and needled from sitting on this chair for so long. Rise above it. There wasn’t really a chance for the fatigue to drag me under. it may because December. People were on holiday. So you don’t expect theyre coming to your place that often. But , by hook or by crook, you have to pay me with what had you promised. Intensely I need to change it. Right now! Desperately!!


Ouh my Allah! This is getting worst. Why did I see you? Why did u see me? Argh! My day flawed by exhaustion since that incidence! And why did I reciprocate it? I should just ignore you.i was absolutely appalled with my action. It happened so fast. Naaah aniwae. Your just a bunch of moron!


My heart need to replenish with love. But I will hold it close to me and made sure it wouldn’t get broken again. But after all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating and to love? Who’s to say what I may have felt this much further down the line?


HAHA! EMO JEK TAWU.

aniwae sowie dee lmbt. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DIAN HAZWANI.
LOVE U MUCH MUCH ! WILL BLOG PROPER ESPECIALLY FOR YOU ON MY NEXT UPDATE OKEY! IM TO TIRED RYT NOW. BYE.








finally ! im done with my O level. teehee.
so i pronounce myself, I AM OFFICIALLY FREE RIGHT NOW.
so come on. grab me before i put my cute butt on moneeey. hehe.
7 months since im missing in action. :) yeah preparing to meet my new life.
ICW. now. im back for REAL.
ouh my godness sake. how can i survive alone studying all the time 24 hrs all this while?
WIERD! now i know dat i felt really dumb. bored. staying at home alone doing nothing.
but i enjoyed actually staying at home doing nothing. relaxing.
i juz wanna feel dat once. now... studying? wat the hell is dat ? GET AWAY FROM ME !
haha. puh-lease! i swear i wanna have fun. FUN! lyke other kids do. yeah!
so outing outing outing girls!! wohoooooooooooooo~
+MUSE please.
+NEW MOON.
+swimming.
+ice skating.
+more more more !


ouh yeah. for those who still schooling, jus wishing. ermmm
APA MAWU SKOLAH BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEB!
hehehhehehe. :D :D :D
alaaah. currently no picture. darn it ! stupid comp. hate u
u always lagging. u make me no mood to blog.
LALALALALA.

on the month of MAY. end of may. IM BAAAAAACK ! hahahhaha
on the month of May, I NOE U GUYS MISS ME ! haha
on the month of May, everyone kept asking me to update.
on the month of May, i updated!
on the month of May, wait! let me recall back wat i did.
on the month of May, i noe u guys irritated! ahaha.
on the month of May, i went to Pd. port dickson.
on the month of May, i passed my chemistry test. wohooo~
on the month of May, im exhilarated to tell amir the marks!
on the month of May, its a bit redundant.
on the month of May, i study. again. always.
on the month of May, nothing interesting happened on this month.
on the month of May, its MOHD AIDIL AKMAL's birthday.
on the month of May, its MOHD ARIFF's birthday.
on the month of May, END of May, its BOO's birthday. <--- redundant again.
on the month of May, i left 4 more months !
on the month of May, I conceded that i mean toward some people.
on the month of May, i reiterated myself that im study and sorry if i ignore your msgs.
on the month of May, i appreciated your wonderful msgs n calls. i loved that.
on the month of May, I've yearned to learn till i achieved my goals. hehe :D
on the month of May, as i contended against someone to get high high high marks. MUAAHAH!
on the month of May, let me reply all those tags here. nyahas.
on the month of May, FINE I'LL STOP NOW !! sheeeessh.


to flow~ nadya updated on the month of May, please dont dont get irritated. hahaha
to deeyawn~ okey. hang out-ed. hahahhah! bugis. dat u puked.! pls dont do dat again. tanx.
to nazurahfitri~ updated updated updated.!
to eeka~ tanx for understanding me eeh. btw. klw aku msg yang kali. tolong reply secepat mungkin. klw tk nk reply. bilang mak kau. tuh hp leh buat rojak ! buang tros. eeka!! tolong jgn lame lah. AHHAHAHAHAHA.
to amir~ apee amir?? ape tuh ??? sape dier?? tk knl laaah. leh knl2 kan tk ? HAHHAHA!!!
to darlzi~ i miss you too babe!!! serious !!! tk bedek. hehe. hang out soon ! love ya!
to ellisya~ i miss you too lay dey !! i dh update lah dey ! hehe dey !
to LOBZ!~ watsupp LOBZ! amaciam hidooop ? haha. eh hp rosak? tulah. klw bulu jage konfem tk rosak. ahahha. okey. dh tawu knper. ingt tao ape bulu bilang! hahahahha
to kak bash~ HAI KAK BASH !! lame tk dgr citer u ! how r u ?


WAIT WAIT!
on the month of May, i'll be back on the month of JUNE ! HAHAHA. SEEYAAA !
on the month of May, sowie got no picture ! hehe.






i am baaaaaaaack.
for real. haha. k daaah bye.
im happy now. better than ever.
will update the real post tomorrow.
insyaAllah. till here. buhbye. hehe. :D:D














































































































































GONE YOU F***ER !
MUAAHHAA.

YA YA !
GO N HAVE SOME FUN !!
u ask me to 'BLAH UH' kans?
k FINE. NADYA BLAH UH .












































































































END OF MY STORY !












HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHHAHAHHAA.
GOSH ! i juz cant stop lufing reading ur pathetic cmmnt !
ouh come on . please lar. i dnt need ur opinion. i noe wat im wearing.
klw nk kutok PLEASE TRY HARDER. coz nadya tak termakan pon dengan kata-kata itu. hah!
wat? why dont i wear a fake METAL eyelashes? HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA !!
OY NENEK. nk kutok pon biar lah masok akal sikit ! PFFFT.
and ouh yeah. since wen im 'mengumpat'? huh?! tkder mase lah. i got better things to do other than blogging n mengumpat. aha. im not childish lyk u lar. dont worry. and yeah . its ur bussiness to critic abt me. its ur fool hobby. ppl lyk u mmg bersepah dlm dunie. ini lah lumrah manusia. so i dnt care abt this matter. i dont give a damn. i dnt take dis thing so seriously honey.
MY VIDEO N ALL DAT STUFF its my property. im juz being myself. n having FUN wif my friends. ouh i guess. u dont have friends yg GEREK lyk mine eh ? HAHAHA.
GIRLS~! JOM AJAK PASSERBY JD BESTFRIEND KITER. keisan aku tgk dier !
AND excuse me? ur IMAN kuat ??!! haha. sedang kan alim ulama tidak mengaku yg mereka mempunyai iman yg kuat. malah mereka mengaku diri mereka lemah dan akan tros berdoa kepada tuhan agar mereka mempunyai iman yg kuat !
n u'r telling me dat ur iman kuat ?!!! HAHAHAHHA !! AND ORANG YG MEMPUNYAI IMAN YG KUAT SUKE MENGUTOK EH ? LYK U DID ? . sape yg memalukan masyarakat sekarang?
klw nadya ckp diri nadya nie iman kuat. nadya rela di kutuk if im wearing lyk dat !
bak kata orang, seperti ibu ketam mengajar anaknya berjalan dgn lurus.
and for pssrby, a little advice for u too = cermin lah diri anda sendiri sebelom membtulkan org laen. n jgn jage tepi kaen orang. terime kaseh !
even im graduated but i admit dat i still need bimbingan agame islam. i neva said dat im perfect !
did i ? hah. n for u, i think u need to go for islamic clasess. coz i think awk nie dh salah mengerti mengenal agame islam dan tentang hukum hakam nyer. eh ?! islam tidak mengajar kiter supaye bongkak ! so jgn lah mengaku diri anda tuh mempunyai iman yg kuat . HAH. kesian.
ya Allah ya tuhan ku. kau beri lah petunjuk dan hidayah kepada orang yg telah mengutuk makhluk mu ini dan beri lah petunjuk dan hidayah kepada ku juga. AMIN. :)
innalillah wa inna ilaihi rajiun. semua yg dtg kepada nyer akan kembali kepada nyer. itulah masud nye klw pssrby nk tawu.and dis is not for only wen u heard of ppl passed away. jgn salah tafsir kan lagi yer nak. hahahahaha!

n now ur telling me dat im pathetic? ASK UR SELF ! so whos the pathetic one ryt now ? theres only one answer for this. its u, a.k.a passerby. haha! wat a LAME name !

---L.L.W kan BOO ! HAHA, EH SEMPAT---

pictures coming !!

1 2 3 4 5 Dragon ball-ers. Ahha.

Eyfa, Dee ( advertising her teeth ) & Nadya, hehs.

Sis Fashihah and Sis Amirah.

Drama-mamak!

haha!! so theres alot of fun ! ALOT ! till i frgt all my problems.
meet eyan at bugis-cb. tot wanna accompany her styding 1st. while i juz read my book.
hmmm. yeah ryt deeyawn. study lah sgt. we're playing her lappy.
n aidil joined us. for so long i neva seen dis HAMSTER . HAHA !
maken bertambah hamster aku tgk ! haha.
den went to orchard to meet kakmey n eyfa.
and den WATCH DRAGON BALLZ ! hahha. sumpah itu criter mrepek.
meet kak fash n abg reddy. n off we went to lau pa sat ! MAKAN.

Alright, we've got no concepts on this. haha.

Syifaa and someone's blog, bad mouthed about her. aiya.

Mirah A, Mirah B, Syifaa, Dee, Esya, Nadiah!

Salmon Egg, at Coffee Bean, aww!

okey. i noe my face is hidious. so WAT? SHUT UP AH ABEH ?! hahaha.
alah. actually before going to school got incident happened.
in the morning tao ! n dah paisey kans.so called sumwan. HAHAHA! :)
bangun lah dh pagi kans. :P okey. n den meet them ! :D
meet ellisya n went to kembangan to buy my student's stuff.
den went to airport. stydy. n den went to tampiness. HEHE.
rasa 21 per! ahha. n went to eyan's crib.
n lastly went home . eh sitting n chatting 1st ! :D den went home. hahahaha!
okey. L.L.W !



so juz now went to SENGKANG.
studying n helpng each other. cute kepper!
alot of things happened even for a while.
and I AM SO SPEACHLESS after dat incident at dat bustop !
hahahaha. TANX EH ! :P
n today is 18. tomorrow is ?? 19 ! HAHA.
yeay abgadeq. its 19 lar! :D:D

BOO!